In the mount of the Lord it shall be seen.

Monday, November 3, 2008

As predicted, reached home in 2 hours time.

Sigh, although the speed of 157 seems to become much faster, but then it still took long to reach home... Aiyoyo...

Aiya, for all the wrong reasons. I feel that I am so not myself recently. Getting angsty with the stuff I don't used to be angsty over, and saying things that I don't usually say.

Sigh, I wished so much that I could declare myself a winner and say "I'm completely over it" out loud.

How many times I tell myself that I wouldn't care anymore, and how many times I'm just always so bothered by it.

I always know the right things for the wrong reason. I always dig my own grave. I always find out the truth that I didn't want to know. I mean, it's always good to find out the truth, perhaps it just takes time to digest.

I wished I could just laugh it off like I do to everything. I wished I could get my old self back.

I wished I could just let go of all the negative energies and allow the positive ones to fill me up.

I just wanted to throw the past away and start all over again. Shred old memories and allow new ones to be created.

Why am I still holding onto the past? I wished I could still have the positive outlook for life like I used to have.

Life is so disappointing. I think I am nostalgic. I can't really rid familiar stuff. It's really out of my comfort zone to be in a new surrounding.

I wished I woudn't fall deeper into all these emo shits anymore.

Sigh sigh sigh.

I might be so tough and angst on the outside, is that just the protective outer shells of all Crabs?

History just strikes me again and again. But it's the final ending that differs.

Am I just weak or are all these too much for a 19 year old to go through?

Sigh, I'm sorry all friends if I'm ain't really myself these days. And transforming into a annonying much person. Go easy on me please.

So many things happened these few years. I am so depressed that Mao Mao isn't physically here to heal me.

Cat oh Cat, Mao Mao oh Mao Mao, when are you gonna come and take mommy with you? I miss you.. Life is so meaningless without you...

I guess there's few people I can trust anymore.

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Sigh, outing with Bro Sze Hui next week. I hope she can give me some positive energies.

- Psalms 37:4 -
Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. # ;