Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Everything in life now seems so calm, sometimes dull, even boring. Sometimes I'm wondering what I'm doing. Sometimes I feel lost. Actually I really don't know. Too many things in this world making matters so complicated. And yes I'm thinking of changing my job again. No, I'm not someone who can't tolerate hardships, in fact you'll be surprised.
I'm just disappointed. Disappointed at humanity at large. Can there really never be altruistic people in this world now?... Sigh, what is this original intention of wanting to be in the healthcare sector? So many times during the moments on my job, I really miss Boss so much. It just feels like there can never be a doctor like him. I really just miss those days we worked really hard just to help people. Yes, I guess I'm still doing pretty much the same thing now but it just feels so different. The world is cold... Really cold. I just hope I don't get forced into the mould of this world and sooner and later I would be just like any one self-centred person. It's just so tiring.
Now I really don't see the silver lining of this cloud. Fortunately what I see is only a small part of the picture, and only God knows the whole picture. I feel kinda lousy about what I'm doing now but I know God's plan for me is good. I really don't know what the future holds, but I know it's good. I may not even end up to be what I want to be, but I know it's still good.
There's too many things to worry about. In fact every part of my life from studies to work to relationships to everything needs worrying. But I really don't have that much brain power to spare, and how will worrying help. Sigh, good times just don't last. It's okay, they'll come again!
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Psalms 37:4 -
Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. # ;
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Somehow i feel like i don't fit into anywhere.
Like a puzzle piece that perhaps have no complementary pieces. I'll just pop out between other pieces or have large holes in between.
How has it become like this without myself even knowing? Have i changed? What happened? What changed?...
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Psalms 37:4 -
Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. # ;