In the mount of the Lord it shall be seen.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Just when it's about sleeping time, I feel hungry all over again!!!..
"What would you do if you weren't afraid?..."

hehehe, the Hello Panda staring at me looks delicious...

SIGH this cycle repeats itself EVERYDAY.

Won't it really just fat die me?. =(

- Psalms 37:4 -
Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. # ;

Monday, September 27, 2010

这样下去真的会破产了！！

- Psalms 37:4 -
Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. # ;

Friday, September 24, 2010

Today I just woke up in the morning, feeling very blissful...

I don't know why.. Nothing actually quite happened. I just felt happy, blissful, blessed and surprisingly recharged after just 5 hours of sleep. How amazing!

Somehow it just seems like I've been speaking to someone throughout the night, pouring out all my troubles and now I feel so much better!

Seems to me that God is telling me to be happy with what I have. Yes indeed, actually that's just what I need! Actually I have everything but why am I the only person who doesn't realise that!

I have God, I have many many awesome friends, from uni, poly and secondary, I have a wonderful boyfriend [whom I have very little patience towards =( ], I study a course that I like, and I have a decent paying job.

So actually what's there to be unhappy about?!

What's wrong with me?!

Yes, I'm supposed to be happy and 不需要把自己弄得这么可怜. Yes indeed. I should count my blessings everyday and remind myself that I actually have a lot and I actually already have what most people ask for in life.

Thank God for everything He has given me.

Thank God for loving me for who I am.

Thank all my friends that have been by my side, being supportive in one way or another.

Thank Benjamin for always (well, most of the time) tolerating my nonsense. (and the reverse is true okay!)

And I will not try to Crystallise my Ben anymore. (and Ben shall not Ben-alise Crystal too!)

But anyway Ben is a Crystal. =P

- Psalms 37:4 -
Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. # ;

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

If only happiness from food can be a little longer lasting!... =)

Then no one will be fat...

- Psalms 37:4 -
Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. # ;

Monday, September 20, 2010

I'm sorry that I'm no longer the girl I was. I'm sorry I have lost my ability to make you smile. I'm sorry I'm making you feel less excited about meeting me. I'm sorry I can't be the girl you want me to be.

You think I've changed, yes I may have. I don't know is it for the better or worse. I want to be good. I always wanted to please everyone, only to realise I can't.

Was it because we were too young then? Was it because everything just seemed so perfect at the moment?

And just suddenly our dreams turned upside down. Was it me?

I know you have plans, and I don't. Oh maybe I have. I know through the years we've been I've been changing.
Don't want to study - want to work
Want to be a teacher - epic fail ambition
Want to be a nurse - didn't have the courage to really do it
Want to study - wished I didn't have to work
Want to be a pharmacist - want to study!!!

B, you really are of little words. I mean little words of what you are intending to do. And if you've realised you aren't exactly an open book.

How about you? Could you tell me? Tell me how I'll fit into your future. Instead of us always thinking of how uncertain it is (and make up a whole lot of nonsense that really drive me crazy). I know what I want to do is making you insecure. Tell me how can I make you feel better instead of bombarding me with countless questions daily, I'll go insane this way. Communication is two-way.

I don't want my studies to pull us apart. Yet study is what I need and want to do. And I'm not young anymore. I can't just put everything down and rebel for our dreams and tomorrow.

You know I still love you no less. But all these and the unspoken has been pushing and pulling. I really don't know when I or we will fall apart.

I'll always remember the days we grew up together. Through our teenage time and how we finally got our key to being responsible for our own lives. Feels like we did better before. Through so many events, happy or sad, right or wrong, going our separate ways or coming back together, we've made it!

But now, what's next?

- Psalms 37:4 -
Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. # ;

Friday, September 10, 2010

I realised that you really loved me alot, I guess.

I really feel like a crazy person letting my imagination run wild at times. No, I'm really crazy.

But still again I missed the old times, the times we used to do special things and looking back at the memories, I wondered where'd they gone.

I wished I could have yesterday once more! =)

- Psalms 37:4 -
Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. # ;

Thursday, September 9, 2010

I wished I can be just a little less concerned, and affected.

- Psalms 37:4 -
Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. # ;